Is change REALLY good?

Sorry I haven't written much lately. Things have been in an uproar around here because Todd and I split up. Yes for good and yes he no longer lives here. I am walking around like a zombie...don't know what to do with myself. He's all I've known for a long time and I feel a little lost. But I know what has happened is what is right and what is best. I just wish I didn't feel so fucking shitty.

Here goes nothin'

So here I am again, most of my shopping is done except for what I am getting my grandparents. They are coming in from West Virginia tomorrow...I am so happy...but what I'm not too thrilled about is the task{s} that lie ahead. This house has to be cleaned from top to bottom. Needless to say, I've been a little slack in that department since I work, hmm around 50 hrs a week at LEAST? So here's what I've done so far: Clean out the freezer. Yup, that's it. Never has my blog name been more fitting. I still have a HUGE list of things to do....and I'm out of coffee!! NOT COOL. Well, it's time to go about my duties and wrap some Christmas presents....

"It's the most wonderful time of the Year...."

So here I am, two weeks left until Christmas, and I have surprisingly got half of my shopping done!!! Now I know what you're thinking...most people are ALREADY done by now, but I'm more of a wait-til-the-last-possible-minute kinda gal. I already got Gracie a Sit N Spin, a little kitchen set, a play cell phone where we can record messages on it, a Cabbage Patch kid {OMG It is sooo cute....it has little top teeth with a gap in them just like hers!} and a few other little things. I am going to finish everything and I mean ALL MY SHOPPING this Wednesday and god help whoever gets in my way...my grandparents will be here in a week and I want this house immaculate, so I HAVE to be done shopping/wrapping/etc. by NEXT Wednesday so I only have to worry with cleaning. It hit me today how cool it is when you go from wanting this or that and making sure your mom/dad/grandparents, etc. knows just how bad you want it, to being a parent and caring less what YOU get, but what your kids get.....it's like being a kid again to me, but more fun cuz I already know what's underneath those ribbons and bows.