Why I hate my car.

First of all, let me say that I am grateful to even have a vehicle, but here lately I have wanted to drive it off a cliff and get it over with. Let me count the ways:
1. Windshield busted all to shit {thanks to previous owner crazy ex boyfriend...lovely.}
2. The engine mounts need to be replaced. Which means it shakes and vibrates...it used to only do it when stopped at a traffic light/stop sign, etc. Now it does it all the time. It first I thought,{jokingly}hey... a cheap thrill!!! Yeah not so much.
3.It has more dents than a can at a recycling center {once again, thank you so so much ex-boyfriend}
4.The hooker who had it before me either got in a wreck and spilled a soda everywhere or one of her bratty kids sprayed it all over the ceiling of the car {think of when a race car driver wins the cup and the spray the champagne everywhere and all over him...got it in your head???? K.} Now picture this: THE FUCKING SHIT WONT' COME OUT!!! Tried Greased Lightning, Clorox wipes, you name it. That shit will still be here when the dust from a mushroom cloud settles.

So here I am...looking like a fool. Todd and I are back together yet again...I swear it's like some bad soap opera. I don't know, although he really fucked up everything tells me that I should let him try to change this time, not ME try to change HIM. He says that if what happened doesn't make him change then nothing ever will. I could see that. All I know is I am crossing my fingers for him and for us and our life together. God knows that if he does screw up again, then that's it. Do me wrong once, shame on you....do me wrong twice....well, that's a shame on me. But not trying to blurt out all my bidness' on the world wide web or anything.....just thought I'd give an update in case anyone out there is listening. I think these blog things are really moer for ones' self than others. I mean how often do you read other people's blogs....and if you do, do you find yourself really giving a shit what they are saying? Could be just me. I am so depressed right now and a bit cynical...my landlords admitted that they were gonna jack the rent up come lease renewal time and lord knows we can't swing it. Hence my depression. I have come to love this home {who wouldn't? I mean, have you SEEN this place? Unfriggen believable} So my take on teh subject is, let's move while we have some cash flow from the tax refund {spoken like a true Walmart shoppin', gun totin', whiskey drinkin' redneck, huh? Well, this is Alabama so fuck you. Or um...when in Rome might suit your fancy a bit more} Todd thinks we should wait until June but what does he know...he's a man.

Is change REALLY good?

Sorry I haven't written much lately. Things have been in an uproar around here because Todd and I split up. Yes for good and yes he no longer lives here. I am walking around like a zombie...don't know what to do with myself. He's all I've known for a long time and I feel a little lost. But I know what has happened is what is right and what is best. I just wish I didn't feel so fucking shitty.

Here goes nothin'

So here I am again, most of my shopping is done except for what I am getting my grandparents. They are coming in from West Virginia tomorrow...I am so happy...but what I'm not too thrilled about is the task{s} that lie ahead. This house has to be cleaned from top to bottom. Needless to say, I've been a little slack in that department since I work, hmm around 50 hrs a week at LEAST? So here's what I've done so far: Clean out the freezer. Yup, that's it. Never has my blog name been more fitting. I still have a HUGE list of things to do....and I'm out of coffee!! NOT COOL. Well, it's time to go about my duties and wrap some Christmas presents....

"It's the most wonderful time of the Year...."

So here I am, two weeks left until Christmas, and I have surprisingly got half of my shopping done!!! Now I know what you're thinking...most people are ALREADY done by now, but I'm more of a wait-til-the-last-possible-minute kinda gal. I already got Gracie a Sit N Spin, a little kitchen set, a play cell phone where we can record messages on it, a Cabbage Patch kid {OMG It is sooo cute....it has little top teeth with a gap in them just like hers!} and a few other little things. I am going to finish everything and I mean ALL MY SHOPPING this Wednesday and god help whoever gets in my way...my grandparents will be here in a week and I want this house immaculate, so I HAVE to be done shopping/wrapping/etc. by NEXT Wednesday so I only have to worry with cleaning. It hit me today how cool it is when you go from wanting this or that and making sure your mom/dad/grandparents, etc. knows just how bad you want it, to being a parent and caring less what YOU get, but what your kids get.....it's like being a kid again to me, but more fun cuz I already know what's underneath those ribbons and bows.

Live like you're dying

I just saw this on the net:
http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,312318,00.html
Absolutely heartbreaking....I can't imagine what this man is going through, but I think at this time of year, it's especially important to be thankful for my family and friends and never never take them for granted...any one of us can go at any time...I love Gracie and Todd with all my heart and it scares me to think that they could be taken from me....just makes ya think about saying screw the petty stuff in life and focus on what's important. I think the holidays have truly lost their meaning and it is my goal to make them how they SHOULD be for my family.

Sick baby

Well, my little munchkin has a severe ear infection, on top of the cold she already has...she's downright pitiful. I think she is feeling better now that her meds are starting to kick in. Yesterday she woke up at 4am and and cried and cried as she was trying to fall back asleep laying by me in our bed. I said, okay enough is enough and took her to the doc...let's hope this gets nipped in the bud soon. Anyway, I haven't blogged in a while because I am without a pc at home {I'm at work right now workin' hard, can ya tell?} Well that's all for now folks.