Is change REALLY good?

Sorry I haven't written much lately. Things have been in an uproar around here because Todd and I split up. Yes for good and yes he no longer lives here. I am walking around like a zombie...don't know what to do with myself. He's all I've known for a long time and I feel a little lost. But I know what has happened is what is right and what is best. I just wish I didn't feel so fucking shitty.

Here goes nothin'

So here I am again, most of my shopping is done except for what I am getting my grandparents. They are coming in from West Virginia tomorrow...I am so happy...but what I'm not too thrilled about is the task{s} that lie ahead. This house has to be cleaned from top to bottom. Needless to say, I've been a little slack in that department since I work, hmm around 50 hrs a week at LEAST? So here's what I've done so far: Clean out the freezer. Yup, that's it. Never has my blog name been more fitting. I still have a HUGE list of things to do....and I'm out of coffee!! NOT COOL. Well, it's time to go about my duties and wrap some Christmas presents....

"It's the most wonderful time of the Year...."

So here I am, two weeks left until Christmas, and I have surprisingly got half of my shopping done!!! Now I know what you're thinking...most people are ALREADY done by now, but I'm more of a wait-til-the-last-possible-minute kinda gal. I already got Gracie a Sit N Spin, a little kitchen set, a play cell phone where we can record messages on it, a Cabbage Patch kid {OMG It is sooo cute....it has little top teeth with a gap in them just like hers!} and a few other little things. I am going to finish everything and I mean ALL MY SHOPPING this Wednesday and god help whoever gets in my way...my grandparents will be here in a week and I want this house immaculate, so I HAVE to be done shopping/wrapping/etc. by NEXT Wednesday so I only have to worry with cleaning. It hit me today how cool it is when you go from wanting this or that and making sure your mom/dad/grandparents, etc. knows just how bad you want it, to being a parent and caring less what YOU get, but what your kids get.....it's like being a kid again to me, but more fun cuz I already know what's underneath those ribbons and bows.

Live like you're dying

I just saw this on the net:
http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,312318,00.html
Absolutely heartbreaking....I can't imagine what this man is going through, but I think at this time of year, it's especially important to be thankful for my family and friends and never never take them for granted...any one of us can go at any time...I love Gracie and Todd with all my heart and it scares me to think that they could be taken from me....just makes ya think about saying screw the petty stuff in life and focus on what's important. I think the holidays have truly lost their meaning and it is my goal to make them how they SHOULD be for my family.

Sick baby

Well, my little munchkin has a severe ear infection, on top of the cold she already has...she's downright pitiful. I think she is feeling better now that her meds are starting to kick in. Yesterday she woke up at 4am and and cried and cried as she was trying to fall back asleep laying by me in our bed. I said, okay enough is enough and took her to the doc...let's hope this gets nipped in the bud soon. Anyway, I haven't blogged in a while because I am without a pc at home {I'm at work right now workin' hard, can ya tell?} Well that's all for now folks.

HaPpY hAlLoWeEn!!!!!!!!

What a crazy day. My radiator is busted and my poor Kia is falling apart. Lucky for me, I work at a car dealership and I can get the work done NOW and pay Later.........sah-weet. Gracie had a little Halloween Party at her Moms Day Out school and it was neat-o. All the lil' chitlins got dressed up in their costumes and paraded around the school for us proud parents {camcorders and digicams on hand, of course} .Gracie was BY FAR the cutest {of COURSE she was}. There was 4 OTHER FREAKIN' TINKERBELLS there....she was the "Tink"est in my humble opinion. Then tonight we went trick or treating. Or rather, we pushed Gracie around in her stroller and then Todd and I knocked on about a gazillion doors and said TRICK OR TREAT, while Gracie just sat there {looking cute, of course} Can't say we didn't try though....have been practicing with her to say "Trick or Treat" but she wasn't feelin' it tonight {of course} Well, I am off to bed {hope I can get some sleep with all this sugar running through my veins.....who says the kids have all the fun?} Good night........

This time last year........

Wow. This time last year, we took Gracie to the Greater Gulf State Fair...she slept in her stroller the whole time. Then again, she WAS only three months old. This time around, she is 15 months old and she really wasn't all that impressed. I took her on the Ferris Wheel and Todd took her on these little trucks..she was like yeah,...whatever, when do we eat? HAHA. Oh yeah she DID like the Carousel, though. I just can't believe how big and smart she is. I took lotsa pictures and video'd everything, too. I can't wait til next year so I can see how different she is.